Post by CARSON ACKERS on May 9, 2012 15:05:24 GMT 10
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ten likes
- alcohol - he probably spends most of his money on this and that's fine with him. of course no one else thinks that he should be spending this much money on something that can cause problems later on in life but, does he care? no, not even in the slightest. he could probably live on this stuff if you really let him, but most of the time he had to be monitored.
- sleeping - this kid could sleep for days if someone really let him. usually someone has to wake him up before he sleeps the day away and if he doesn't get enough sleep he will be crankier than shit. he runs off of six hours at the least and ten hours at the most. although he could sleep all day, he would not be able to function with all that sleep. he doesn't really like being woken up either but whatever.
- food - the kid could live on anything. he also has the best metabolism ever, or so he thinks, that allows him to eat all that he wants and then he can not gain any weight. so he continues to just shovel food down his throat, since he's always freaking hungry, and then he'll probably sit there for about a half hour and then eat some more. his favorite is chinese food. he could eat that all freaking day and the real way to his heart is to get him some, doesn't matter what it is. he loves it all.
- video games - he would not say that he was a gamer. or even a video game junkie but he does enjoy them. his favorites are the grand theft auto series, thinks they're the best in the world and that everyone should play them. for stress purposes obviously. he usually plays them for stress relief because who doesn't like to kill hookers and innocent pedestrians right? he also likes skyrim ( like everyone else ) and he likes call of duty. except that he usually plays video games when he is beyond bored and that happens a lot more than it should.
- energy drinks - he knows that they are terrible for him. and that really he should not be drinking the shit out of them like he does but how else is he going to stay awake you know? he figured that one a day won't really kill him and he prefers them over coffee but usually he cannot stay awake without one in the morning. it's not so much he likes it, it really was that he cannot stay awake without at least one. and then after that he is good to go for a little bit. but he will drink coffee he guesses, it's just not his favorite. monster is.
- relaxing - who doesn't like relaxing? carson lives for just coming back to the bus and just crashing if he can sometimes. there are times where that is all he wants to do and if he can't do that then he'll get annoyed and just shut up and call it a day. of course he won't be the nicest person if he cannot relax but if he can then he'll probably the be nicest guy on the planet. usually what he does is pop in a movie or play some games or something of the sort. he is lazy and that is part of his thing.
- taco bell - again with the food thing. he just loves food okay? and he really likes fast food, it's his favorite. tastes good and fast? yeah that's really his thing. and taco bell is definitely one of his favorites because, as with chinese food, he also really likes mexican food. but nothing too spicy because he hates the feeling of his tongue being on fire. it really fucks his day up you know?
- music - it's probably a given that he likes music but who doesn't? if he did not then why would he be on a tour eh? so that's what one of his biggest passions is and he was not sure what really clicked but it did. and it started as him just listening to everything that he could and getting other people to listen before he started to get involved with music himself. so it's one of his biggest passions and he loves it to pieces.
- guitar - again this should be pretty freaking obvious. he plays the guitar and he loves doing it. it's another stress reliever to him. can't get something off your mind? play a shit ton of notes until you can. that's his motto and that is what he does. he has about a hundred thousand guitars at his house. not really, he has five and he bought them all by himself. but he pretty much treats them like his own children. he's that obsessed with them.
nine dislikes
- waking up early - the biggest pet peeve that carson has is when people wake him up before 10 for stupid shit. like asking him where something is when it clearly is right in front of their face. he hates that so much that it makes him want to punch kittens and then stab puppies. normally after that he won't be a nice guy and that is what probably makes people the most pissed at him.
- clingy people - nothing annoys him most then when people get really clingy to him. he likes girls. that is probably something that is pretty obvious but he hates when he tells them to fuck off and they continue to just be there. and he hates, when he is in an actual relationship, girls who just text him constantly and tell him he's a bad boyfriend when he doesn't answer a call on the first ring or doesn't text back after five minutes. he's had enough of those kinds of girls and that is that.
- birds - people tell him he's weird for having this kind of hatred for birds but it is more of a fear than anything. when he was a kid he accidentally pushed a birds nest out of a tree and then it went downhill from there. he did not mean to really. he saw it after it was too late and it was falling. well the mom saw that shit and started to attack him and ever since then he has had this fear of bird, any kind of bird. swans, blue jays, geese. anything. so now if htere's a bird near him he really freaks out and then everyone ends up making fun of him for it but seriously, those little fuckers get on his last nerve. and he always thinks that they are going to attack him, so he stays clear of them.
- vegetables - most people claim to dislike the taste of veggies and that's only because, well they don't taste good. but carson has a strong dislike for the taste of anything that is in the veggie category. it was probably because his mother tried to shove them down his throat when he was a kid, mostly because his sisters loved them and he did not. he was the only one in his family who could not stand the taste of those little fuckers and he still hates them. he would rather rip his esophagus out than eat another shred of a vegetable and he means it. most of the time he doesn't really put them on his plate and he never ever craves them, he has that much of a hatred for them.
- authority figures - he hates when people tell him what to do. he absolutely loathes it. if someone does that he'll probably punch them in the mouth and then it'll get him more in trouble. he just cannot stand when people think they're better than him and they tell him what to do. it just irks him to the point where he wants to kill someone. of course he would not actually kill someone but it makes him want to.
- liars - there's one thing that carson hates the most and it's liars. he thinks that honesty is key and if someone hates you for telling the truth then fuck them, they are not worth the breath. so when he finds out that someone is lying to him he takes it personal to be honest. he thinks that is the worst thing that someone can do, and when they do it to him he just cuts them out of his life for a couple of months or years until he feels that he can trust them again. and it takes a long time for carson to trust someone after they have lied to him or fucked him over.
- being rushed - that can include anything and it does include anything. when carson is rushed that means that the quality of the job he is doing is going to go down. he thinks that if he can take his time then things will be fine and everything will work out you know? but when he is rushed then he just freaks out about deadlines and if it will be good enough and what if he has to start over? so the thoughts start to get to him and then he really starts to let it show. that's why he hates it when people tell him to get a move on and it makes him want to go slower. that really just bothers him to pieces and it probably always will bother him.
- "jesus freaks" - it's not that he hates religion or anything it's just he hates people who bleed for jesus. he thinks that jesus is real, but he is not a follower and he probably will never be a follower. mostly because he thinks that if he really did love his 'children' then he would not just allow all the bad shit that goes on to go on. that's how he feels and that is that. it is mostly just people who tries to shove the fact that 'jesus is our savior' down his throat and he wants them to just fuck off for about an hour before talking to him again.
eight tweets
@fuckyoucarson: you know what? fuck your mother. :D
@fuckyoucarson: i like dick.
@fuckyoucarson: i think my sister should stay away from my twitter (:
@fuckyoucarson: what the fuck did i just watch?
@fuckyoucarson: i need a drink or twenty.
@fuckyoucarson: when life gives you lemons, squeeze thos bitches in someone's eye.
@fuckyoucarson: the guy at the bar is eying me. i think it's because i was hitting on his girlfriend. or he's gay.
@fuckyoucarson: TACO BELL BITCHES.
seven recent purchases
- taco bell - boy has to eat you know? and he loves this food more than life itself. well, he actually loves chinese food more but taco bell was on the way and he was starving. he could spend so much money on taco if someone really let him and that was what he was going to do if he could have. instead he just got what he needed and then called it a day.
- monster - it had been a long ass day for him and really he needed something to keep him up for a few hours, just a few hours. and monster is the least expensive one and it does not taste like shit. he absolutely despises red bull and he wants nothing to do with that nasty shit. so he decided to just get a monster and then he called it a day. it was his favorite thing and he got what he wanted, so he was a happy camper.
- shampoo - he was running low and he figured that just sticking his head in the water was not going to cut it you know? and besides no one likes a greasy guy so he figured he should probably get his shit together and get some shampoo. of course it was not anything that cost more than five bucks since he is cheaper than shit and he thinks that it is ridiculous that people will spend fifty dollars on shampoo but whatever, it is what it is.
- cigarettes - this is probably pretty obvious. carson is addicted to cigarettes and he had been running out for a while. but of course, leave it to him to wait until the last minute to get his shit so that he would be bumming for a bit. so he finally got a little money and then the first thing he bought were those little cancer sticks. most of the time he can be found having them in his pocket unless he runs out. and then then by that point he has to bum them and usually he does give them back to the people he bums them from. but on occasion he has forgotten. oh well, not his fault.
- music on itunes - yes he still buys his music. he figures that, as a musician himself, he should pay for most of his music. obviously he doesn't pirate. well, most of the time he doesn't. since he knows how it works he buys it all or he gets a cd and then puts them on his itunes but there are days where he just cannot be bothered and downloads it from a torrent site or something of the sort. so, when he hears a song he likes, he usually just downloads it and goes from there. most of the time though he obeys the law.
- paper towel - you know, people are just messy. and since it was carsons mess he was the one who had to clean it up but he had no paper towel. so that is really the story with that. he just knocked over a cup of, well he was not sure and when he went to get towels they were all nasty and the whole effing bus was out of paper towel so he got bus cleaning duty and was sent off. that really is the gist of it.
- alcohol - so really this should not be that big of a surprise. carson is definitely an alcoholic and he tends to buy it in bulk. and of course he ran out of it a couple days ago so he felt the need to go to sams club or walmart or some store like that and just buy a shit ton of it and then go nuts. he could drink that shit for days and if you let him he probably will.
six songs on shuffle
- just impolite - plushgun. "are you frightened by perfection is this who you are not who you want to be? i walk the line like johnny cash i made the bus in seconds flat i called your line to many times i'm not obsessed just impolite."
- sound of madness - shinedown - "i created the sound of madness wrote the book on pain somehow i'm still here to explain that the darkest hour never comes in the night. you can sleep with a gun when you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?"
- the kids aren't alright - the offspring - "now the neighborhoods cracked and torn kids grown up but their lives are torn. how can one little street swallow up so many lives?"
- kryptonite - 3 doors down - "and if i go crazy then will you still call me superman? if i'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand? i'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might."
- bat country - avenged sevenfold - "he who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man. caught here in a fiery blaze won't lose my will to stay. i tried to drive all through the night the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sight. no oasis here to see the sand is singing deathless words to me."
- letterbomb - green day - "she said i can't take this place i'm leaving here tonight. she said i can't take this town i'm leaving you tonight."
five personality traits
- lazy - carson is actually pretty lazy. it takes him a lot to get up and get the motivation to do something unless he is passionate about it. and most of the time he is not passionate about anything so he really does not want to do anything by then. it's probably because he figures that shit takes more effort than he is willing to give and that is pretty much fine with him. he knows that he is lazy and everyone has called him a lazy ass in his life so, yeah. he gets the memo. but really he probably won't do anything about it. it's getting so bad to the point where he won't even reach for the remote if it is on the other side of the couch. that just requires a colossal amount of energy and sorry, he just wants to use that somewhere where it is useful instead of getting the remote to change the station. he'll just stick with what he is watching thank you very much.
- intelligent - believe it or not carson is actually a pretty smart cookie. he can retain information that he learns pretty easily and he can memorize something with ease. when he was a kid he actually got good grades and did all of his homework and stuff and was a pretty much 4.0 student. but when he hit high school and started to hang out with the kids that he did the had dumbed himself down to make him seem 'cooler' if you will. obviously the people he hung out with were not the smartest kids in the bunch and carson felt like if they knew that he was smart they would stop hanging out with him. so he did just enough to scrape by with C's and called it a day. besides a rock star does not really need to know the area of a circle while playing a concert you know?
- addict - it's probably not a big surprise to anyone that carson is an addict. and it's not that he's addicted to everything, it's mostly cigarettes, or nicotine, and alcohol. if he does not have a cigarette every other hour or so he'll probably freak out and then go ape shit bananas on everyone and anyone. seriously no one is safe from that kind of punishment. it goes the same with the alcohol too. he cannot go one day without having at least one beer or one bottle of vodka or whatever it is that he is in the mood for. he spends so much money on alcohol too that it is ridiculous but he really does not want to stop. he does not see the point of stopping. he's young and he figures that he could do whatever the hell he wants with his life so that is that. he'll probably stop when he wants to, or at least that's what he tells himself and others when they bring it up to him. that, and then he freaks out for people calling him an addict. he's very touchy.
- honest - carson believes that honesty is key to everything. he likes being honest with people and he loves it even more when people are honest with him. seriously if people cannot handle the truth then fuck them, they're not worth the lies they want to hear. he loves it when people are truthful. if you tell him the truth then he will have so much respect for said person that it is ridiculous but if someone lies to him then he'll cut them off faster than they can say no. he hates being lied to it is one of his biggest pet peeves.
- immature - carson is definitely immature when it comes to...wel everything. he can twist anything into a 'that's what she said' joke and make everything and anything sexual. he is actually not as bad now as he was when he was eighteen and around then but it is taking him quite the while to mature. not that he really cares because he thinks that mature people are some of the rudest people on the planet, but for the most part he just likes acting like a kid and a big joker. he does not see the problem in it really and he probably never will.
four formspring questions
spacebound: i think you owe me money for cigarettes mister. Bl
fuckyoucarson: whoa i don't owe you shit. i paid you back.
anonymous: y u so hot?
fuckyoucarson: my parents has good form. (:
anonymous: what time is it?
fuckyoucarson: ADVENTURE TIME.
chelliewellie: i love my baby brother :D
fuckyoucarson: i will kill you. Bl
three secrets
- one - he has the worlds biggest fear of birds. one attacked him when he was a kid and now he does not like to deal with those little bastards any more. and he does not really want anyone to know about it because obviously he gets made fun of. but sometimes shit gets loose and then he can not do anything about it. so that was what is going on with this situation and if all the birds die off in the world then fuck he definitely would not be sad about it.
- two - even though he tells someone that he loves being single and he likes being alone the truth is he does not want to die alone, which is what he thinks will happen to him when he gets older. it is not that he wants to settle down any time soon. that is definitely not the case. it just is that he does not want to be sixty and have no one by his side. that is one of his biggest secrets and fears to be completely honest so he would rather just not let that happen to him.
- three - his best friend overdosed on the drugs that he gave her. and although he knows that really he was not the one who said that 'hey do all these and die' but he was the one who bought them and distributed them and then watched his friend seize up and die. it was a very scary experience and he really does not like to talk about it. everyone who really knows him figures that is the reason why he drinks so much now and that may be true but honestly the guilt that carson feels all the time tends to overwhelm him to the point where he cannot breathe.
two memories
- one - when he was a little kid his parents had brought him to an amusement park. and normally this would not be of any significance to anyone but for some reason, that day, carson was the most happiest he had ever been. and he loved all the roller coasters that he could get on and then some. when he was a teenager and a lot taller he went back and rode all the rides so that he could say that he had done it and he had to say that it was the best time of his life. and every summer he just kept going back and going back and going back and it still stayed completely and utterly fun to him and he would love to do it again if he ever went back home. that is one of his goals, to go back to the amusement park. he just hopes that he can do it soon.
- two - this is not a significant memory but it is one that he enjoys to be honest. so when he was a teenager a bunch of his friends and him went to the beach to just hang out. they left early in the morning, even though carson was crankier than shit, and they just hung out by the beach. it was not a big event but just the peace that he felt was nice. it was just drinking and smoking on the beach and that was just really nice you know? it was just something that he wanted to do and it was nice to have no worries for that whole entire day. it was also the day that he lost his virginity but that's another story for another time.
one history
- carson is the youngest child out of four. he is also the only boy out of four. his parents were college sweethearts and when they graduated from getting their masters that was when his mother, samantha, found out that she was pregnant. it was definitely an oops moment but she decided right then to keep it. they eventually got married and then settled down in a somewhat nice neighborhood. so as samantha got bigger and bigger, her husband, carter, got richer and richer. at least, that was samantha was thinking. what she really did not know was that her husband was selling drugs on the side as a means to make extra cash. by the time she found out she had a six month old daughter and she was working through school once more, although this time it was not going so great. he got busted in a drug raid and was thrown in prison. but the thing was, samantha stayed by carter's side through the whole time. two years later he got out on good behavior and samantha got pregnant once again. nine months later their second daughter was born. to be completely honest carter was happy but he was kind of sad that he still did not have a boy. so a couple years past and samantha became a pediatrician while carter became an interventionist. he wanted to help people since he had been at rock bottom himself. that was also the time that they tried for another child and they were successful but they had another girl. so, they decided to just give up on having a boy and just get on with their lives. their eldest was six and then their second was four. but, nine months after that, during what they think was just a drunken night samantha had gotten pregnant again. and this time they did have a boy. carson matthew ackers was born on august 18th and he got his name from his father, for the most part. as a toddler carson was not that good. he usually woke up during the wee hours of the night and just screamed his lungs out. it got so bad that sometimes his neighbors could hear him. they even called social services on samantha and carter because he was screaming so loud and so much. but they found that carson was just never happy and there really was nothing that they could do about it. so that was the time that samantha dreamed about just smothering carson to get him to shut his mouth. the stress with her job and the lack of sleep had started to get to her and she started to see a psychologist for a little bit. but once he started to get older carson also stopped being a little pain in the ass and then it was harder for his parents to get him out of bed. they usually had to fight carson to get up and when he did get up he usually walked around like a zombie. it was not that he was just getting sleep it really took him a long time to actually wake up. elementary school was not that big of a deal for carson. he just did what he could do to get good grades and usually studied his ass off believe it or not. then when he hit middle school he made friends with the wrong crowd and then he dumbed himself down so that people would actually like him. it was probably a stupid thing to do since he is actually pretty smart but kids can be vicious. especially when you're a smart male. that was probably the first problem in his life. but he decided to get a hobby and that was when he picked up the guitar and started to get lessons. well, he begged his parents to give him lessons but that is not the point. he was really happy to own his own guitar and middle school band is what sparked his interest. they had been forced to pick some kind of instrument for year 6 and that was what he chose. and that was that. that was when he met his best friend skylar. they had been inseparable and really everyone thought they were dating at first. sometimes carson thinks that they should have dated but that is not the point. so ever since middle school to high school they were always hanging out. and then one day, when he was seventeen, he decided he would try to do some drugs. nothing too hard he guessed. someone gave him cocaine and told him to have fun and he did. so he got skylar to do it with him and then he got a couple more people to do with with him and before he knew it skylar was freaking out and started to seize up and he just totally freaked out. he called 911 and rode with her in the hospital but she died on the way. and that was when carson decided that he was never going to do drugs again and he felt so lost that day and after that and he honestly still feels so much guilt that it sometimes eat away at him. so, to get it all out he started to get heavier into guitar and then decided what the hell why not form a band right? he never really figured that they would get this big but hey, anything is apparently possible right?
- alcohol - he probably spends most of his money on this and that's fine with him. of course no one else thinks that he should be spending this much money on something that can cause problems later on in life but, does he care? no, not even in the slightest. he could probably live on this stuff if you really let him, but most of the time he had to be monitored.
- sleeping - this kid could sleep for days if someone really let him. usually someone has to wake him up before he sleeps the day away and if he doesn't get enough sleep he will be crankier than shit. he runs off of six hours at the least and ten hours at the most. although he could sleep all day, he would not be able to function with all that sleep. he doesn't really like being woken up either but whatever.
- food - the kid could live on anything. he also has the best metabolism ever, or so he thinks, that allows him to eat all that he wants and then he can not gain any weight. so he continues to just shovel food down his throat, since he's always freaking hungry, and then he'll probably sit there for about a half hour and then eat some more. his favorite is chinese food. he could eat that all freaking day and the real way to his heart is to get him some, doesn't matter what it is. he loves it all.
- video games - he would not say that he was a gamer. or even a video game junkie but he does enjoy them. his favorites are the grand theft auto series, thinks they're the best in the world and that everyone should play them. for stress purposes obviously. he usually plays them for stress relief because who doesn't like to kill hookers and innocent pedestrians right? he also likes skyrim ( like everyone else ) and he likes call of duty. except that he usually plays video games when he is beyond bored and that happens a lot more than it should.
- energy drinks - he knows that they are terrible for him. and that really he should not be drinking the shit out of them like he does but how else is he going to stay awake you know? he figured that one a day won't really kill him and he prefers them over coffee but usually he cannot stay awake without one in the morning. it's not so much he likes it, it really was that he cannot stay awake without at least one. and then after that he is good to go for a little bit. but he will drink coffee he guesses, it's just not his favorite. monster is.
- relaxing - who doesn't like relaxing? carson lives for just coming back to the bus and just crashing if he can sometimes. there are times where that is all he wants to do and if he can't do that then he'll get annoyed and just shut up and call it a day. of course he won't be the nicest person if he cannot relax but if he can then he'll probably the be nicest guy on the planet. usually what he does is pop in a movie or play some games or something of the sort. he is lazy and that is part of his thing.
- taco bell - again with the food thing. he just loves food okay? and he really likes fast food, it's his favorite. tastes good and fast? yeah that's really his thing. and taco bell is definitely one of his favorites because, as with chinese food, he also really likes mexican food. but nothing too spicy because he hates the feeling of his tongue being on fire. it really fucks his day up you know?
- music - it's probably a given that he likes music but who doesn't? if he did not then why would he be on a tour eh? so that's what one of his biggest passions is and he was not sure what really clicked but it did. and it started as him just listening to everything that he could and getting other people to listen before he started to get involved with music himself. so it's one of his biggest passions and he loves it to pieces.
- guitar - again this should be pretty freaking obvious. he plays the guitar and he loves doing it. it's another stress reliever to him. can't get something off your mind? play a shit ton of notes until you can. that's his motto and that is what he does. he has about a hundred thousand guitars at his house. not really, he has five and he bought them all by himself. but he pretty much treats them like his own children. he's that obsessed with them.
nine dislikes
- waking up early - the biggest pet peeve that carson has is when people wake him up before 10 for stupid shit. like asking him where something is when it clearly is right in front of their face. he hates that so much that it makes him want to punch kittens and then stab puppies. normally after that he won't be a nice guy and that is what probably makes people the most pissed at him.
- clingy people - nothing annoys him most then when people get really clingy to him. he likes girls. that is probably something that is pretty obvious but he hates when he tells them to fuck off and they continue to just be there. and he hates, when he is in an actual relationship, girls who just text him constantly and tell him he's a bad boyfriend when he doesn't answer a call on the first ring or doesn't text back after five minutes. he's had enough of those kinds of girls and that is that.
- birds - people tell him he's weird for having this kind of hatred for birds but it is more of a fear than anything. when he was a kid he accidentally pushed a birds nest out of a tree and then it went downhill from there. he did not mean to really. he saw it after it was too late and it was falling. well the mom saw that shit and started to attack him and ever since then he has had this fear of bird, any kind of bird. swans, blue jays, geese. anything. so now if htere's a bird near him he really freaks out and then everyone ends up making fun of him for it but seriously, those little fuckers get on his last nerve. and he always thinks that they are going to attack him, so he stays clear of them.
- vegetables - most people claim to dislike the taste of veggies and that's only because, well they don't taste good. but carson has a strong dislike for the taste of anything that is in the veggie category. it was probably because his mother tried to shove them down his throat when he was a kid, mostly because his sisters loved them and he did not. he was the only one in his family who could not stand the taste of those little fuckers and he still hates them. he would rather rip his esophagus out than eat another shred of a vegetable and he means it. most of the time he doesn't really put them on his plate and he never ever craves them, he has that much of a hatred for them.
- authority figures - he hates when people tell him what to do. he absolutely loathes it. if someone does that he'll probably punch them in the mouth and then it'll get him more in trouble. he just cannot stand when people think they're better than him and they tell him what to do. it just irks him to the point where he wants to kill someone. of course he would not actually kill someone but it makes him want to.
- liars - there's one thing that carson hates the most and it's liars. he thinks that honesty is key and if someone hates you for telling the truth then fuck them, they are not worth the breath. so when he finds out that someone is lying to him he takes it personal to be honest. he thinks that is the worst thing that someone can do, and when they do it to him he just cuts them out of his life for a couple of months or years until he feels that he can trust them again. and it takes a long time for carson to trust someone after they have lied to him or fucked him over.
- being rushed - that can include anything and it does include anything. when carson is rushed that means that the quality of the job he is doing is going to go down. he thinks that if he can take his time then things will be fine and everything will work out you know? but when he is rushed then he just freaks out about deadlines and if it will be good enough and what if he has to start over? so the thoughts start to get to him and then he really starts to let it show. that's why he hates it when people tell him to get a move on and it makes him want to go slower. that really just bothers him to pieces and it probably always will bother him.
- "jesus freaks" - it's not that he hates religion or anything it's just he hates people who bleed for jesus. he thinks that jesus is real, but he is not a follower and he probably will never be a follower. mostly because he thinks that if he really did love his 'children' then he would not just allow all the bad shit that goes on to go on. that's how he feels and that is that. it is mostly just people who tries to shove the fact that 'jesus is our savior' down his throat and he wants them to just fuck off for about an hour before talking to him again.
eight tweets
@fuckyoucarson: you know what? fuck your mother. :D
@fuckyoucarson: i like dick.
@fuckyoucarson: i think my sister should stay away from my twitter (:
@fuckyoucarson: what the fuck did i just watch?
@fuckyoucarson: i need a drink or twenty.
@fuckyoucarson: when life gives you lemons, squeeze thos bitches in someone's eye.
@fuckyoucarson: the guy at the bar is eying me. i think it's because i was hitting on his girlfriend. or he's gay.
@fuckyoucarson: TACO BELL BITCHES.
seven recent purchases
- taco bell - boy has to eat you know? and he loves this food more than life itself. well, he actually loves chinese food more but taco bell was on the way and he was starving. he could spend so much money on taco if someone really let him and that was what he was going to do if he could have. instead he just got what he needed and then called it a day.
- monster - it had been a long ass day for him and really he needed something to keep him up for a few hours, just a few hours. and monster is the least expensive one and it does not taste like shit. he absolutely despises red bull and he wants nothing to do with that nasty shit. so he decided to just get a monster and then he called it a day. it was his favorite thing and he got what he wanted, so he was a happy camper.
- shampoo - he was running low and he figured that just sticking his head in the water was not going to cut it you know? and besides no one likes a greasy guy so he figured he should probably get his shit together and get some shampoo. of course it was not anything that cost more than five bucks since he is cheaper than shit and he thinks that it is ridiculous that people will spend fifty dollars on shampoo but whatever, it is what it is.
- cigarettes - this is probably pretty obvious. carson is addicted to cigarettes and he had been running out for a while. but of course, leave it to him to wait until the last minute to get his shit so that he would be bumming for a bit. so he finally got a little money and then the first thing he bought were those little cancer sticks. most of the time he can be found having them in his pocket unless he runs out. and then then by that point he has to bum them and usually he does give them back to the people he bums them from. but on occasion he has forgotten. oh well, not his fault.
- music on itunes - yes he still buys his music. he figures that, as a musician himself, he should pay for most of his music. obviously he doesn't pirate. well, most of the time he doesn't. since he knows how it works he buys it all or he gets a cd and then puts them on his itunes but there are days where he just cannot be bothered and downloads it from a torrent site or something of the sort. so, when he hears a song he likes, he usually just downloads it and goes from there. most of the time though he obeys the law.
- paper towel - you know, people are just messy. and since it was carsons mess he was the one who had to clean it up but he had no paper towel. so that is really the story with that. he just knocked over a cup of, well he was not sure and when he went to get towels they were all nasty and the whole effing bus was out of paper towel so he got bus cleaning duty and was sent off. that really is the gist of it.
- alcohol - so really this should not be that big of a surprise. carson is definitely an alcoholic and he tends to buy it in bulk. and of course he ran out of it a couple days ago so he felt the need to go to sams club or walmart or some store like that and just buy a shit ton of it and then go nuts. he could drink that shit for days and if you let him he probably will.
six songs on shuffle
- just impolite - plushgun. "are you frightened by perfection is this who you are not who you want to be? i walk the line like johnny cash i made the bus in seconds flat i called your line to many times i'm not obsessed just impolite."
- sound of madness - shinedown - "i created the sound of madness wrote the book on pain somehow i'm still here to explain that the darkest hour never comes in the night. you can sleep with a gun when you gonna wake up and fight for yourself?"
- the kids aren't alright - the offspring - "now the neighborhoods cracked and torn kids grown up but their lives are torn. how can one little street swallow up so many lives?"
- kryptonite - 3 doors down - "and if i go crazy then will you still call me superman? if i'm alive and well will you be there holding my hand? i'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might."
- bat country - avenged sevenfold - "he who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man. caught here in a fiery blaze won't lose my will to stay. i tried to drive all through the night the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sight. no oasis here to see the sand is singing deathless words to me."
- letterbomb - green day - "she said i can't take this place i'm leaving here tonight. she said i can't take this town i'm leaving you tonight."
five personality traits
- lazy - carson is actually pretty lazy. it takes him a lot to get up and get the motivation to do something unless he is passionate about it. and most of the time he is not passionate about anything so he really does not want to do anything by then. it's probably because he figures that shit takes more effort than he is willing to give and that is pretty much fine with him. he knows that he is lazy and everyone has called him a lazy ass in his life so, yeah. he gets the memo. but really he probably won't do anything about it. it's getting so bad to the point where he won't even reach for the remote if it is on the other side of the couch. that just requires a colossal amount of energy and sorry, he just wants to use that somewhere where it is useful instead of getting the remote to change the station. he'll just stick with what he is watching thank you very much.
- intelligent - believe it or not carson is actually a pretty smart cookie. he can retain information that he learns pretty easily and he can memorize something with ease. when he was a kid he actually got good grades and did all of his homework and stuff and was a pretty much 4.0 student. but when he hit high school and started to hang out with the kids that he did the had dumbed himself down to make him seem 'cooler' if you will. obviously the people he hung out with were not the smartest kids in the bunch and carson felt like if they knew that he was smart they would stop hanging out with him. so he did just enough to scrape by with C's and called it a day. besides a rock star does not really need to know the area of a circle while playing a concert you know?
- addict - it's probably not a big surprise to anyone that carson is an addict. and it's not that he's addicted to everything, it's mostly cigarettes, or nicotine, and alcohol. if he does not have a cigarette every other hour or so he'll probably freak out and then go ape shit bananas on everyone and anyone. seriously no one is safe from that kind of punishment. it goes the same with the alcohol too. he cannot go one day without having at least one beer or one bottle of vodka or whatever it is that he is in the mood for. he spends so much money on alcohol too that it is ridiculous but he really does not want to stop. he does not see the point of stopping. he's young and he figures that he could do whatever the hell he wants with his life so that is that. he'll probably stop when he wants to, or at least that's what he tells himself and others when they bring it up to him. that, and then he freaks out for people calling him an addict. he's very touchy.
- honest - carson believes that honesty is key to everything. he likes being honest with people and he loves it even more when people are honest with him. seriously if people cannot handle the truth then fuck them, they're not worth the lies they want to hear. he loves it when people are truthful. if you tell him the truth then he will have so much respect for said person that it is ridiculous but if someone lies to him then he'll cut them off faster than they can say no. he hates being lied to it is one of his biggest pet peeves.
- immature - carson is definitely immature when it comes to...wel everything. he can twist anything into a 'that's what she said' joke and make everything and anything sexual. he is actually not as bad now as he was when he was eighteen and around then but it is taking him quite the while to mature. not that he really cares because he thinks that mature people are some of the rudest people on the planet, but for the most part he just likes acting like a kid and a big joker. he does not see the problem in it really and he probably never will.
four formspring questions
spacebound: i think you owe me money for cigarettes mister. Bl
fuckyoucarson: whoa i don't owe you shit. i paid you back.
anonymous: y u so hot?
fuckyoucarson: my parents has good form. (:
anonymous: what time is it?
fuckyoucarson: ADVENTURE TIME.
chelliewellie: i love my baby brother :D
fuckyoucarson: i will kill you. Bl
three secrets
- one - he has the worlds biggest fear of birds. one attacked him when he was a kid and now he does not like to deal with those little bastards any more. and he does not really want anyone to know about it because obviously he gets made fun of. but sometimes shit gets loose and then he can not do anything about it. so that was what is going on with this situation and if all the birds die off in the world then fuck he definitely would not be sad about it.
- two - even though he tells someone that he loves being single and he likes being alone the truth is he does not want to die alone, which is what he thinks will happen to him when he gets older. it is not that he wants to settle down any time soon. that is definitely not the case. it just is that he does not want to be sixty and have no one by his side. that is one of his biggest secrets and fears to be completely honest so he would rather just not let that happen to him.
- three - his best friend overdosed on the drugs that he gave her. and although he knows that really he was not the one who said that 'hey do all these and die' but he was the one who bought them and distributed them and then watched his friend seize up and die. it was a very scary experience and he really does not like to talk about it. everyone who really knows him figures that is the reason why he drinks so much now and that may be true but honestly the guilt that carson feels all the time tends to overwhelm him to the point where he cannot breathe.
two memories
- one - when he was a little kid his parents had brought him to an amusement park. and normally this would not be of any significance to anyone but for some reason, that day, carson was the most happiest he had ever been. and he loved all the roller coasters that he could get on and then some. when he was a teenager and a lot taller he went back and rode all the rides so that he could say that he had done it and he had to say that it was the best time of his life. and every summer he just kept going back and going back and going back and it still stayed completely and utterly fun to him and he would love to do it again if he ever went back home. that is one of his goals, to go back to the amusement park. he just hopes that he can do it soon.
- two - this is not a significant memory but it is one that he enjoys to be honest. so when he was a teenager a bunch of his friends and him went to the beach to just hang out. they left early in the morning, even though carson was crankier than shit, and they just hung out by the beach. it was not a big event but just the peace that he felt was nice. it was just drinking and smoking on the beach and that was just really nice you know? it was just something that he wanted to do and it was nice to have no worries for that whole entire day. it was also the day that he lost his virginity but that's another story for another time.
one history
- carson is the youngest child out of four. he is also the only boy out of four. his parents were college sweethearts and when they graduated from getting their masters that was when his mother, samantha, found out that she was pregnant. it was definitely an oops moment but she decided right then to keep it. they eventually got married and then settled down in a somewhat nice neighborhood. so as samantha got bigger and bigger, her husband, carter, got richer and richer. at least, that was samantha was thinking. what she really did not know was that her husband was selling drugs on the side as a means to make extra cash. by the time she found out she had a six month old daughter and she was working through school once more, although this time it was not going so great. he got busted in a drug raid and was thrown in prison. but the thing was, samantha stayed by carter's side through the whole time. two years later he got out on good behavior and samantha got pregnant once again. nine months later their second daughter was born. to be completely honest carter was happy but he was kind of sad that he still did not have a boy. so a couple years past and samantha became a pediatrician while carter became an interventionist. he wanted to help people since he had been at rock bottom himself. that was also the time that they tried for another child and they were successful but they had another girl. so, they decided to just give up on having a boy and just get on with their lives. their eldest was six and then their second was four. but, nine months after that, during what they think was just a drunken night samantha had gotten pregnant again. and this time they did have a boy. carson matthew ackers was born on august 18th and he got his name from his father, for the most part. as a toddler carson was not that good. he usually woke up during the wee hours of the night and just screamed his lungs out. it got so bad that sometimes his neighbors could hear him. they even called social services on samantha and carter because he was screaming so loud and so much. but they found that carson was just never happy and there really was nothing that they could do about it. so that was the time that samantha dreamed about just smothering carson to get him to shut his mouth. the stress with her job and the lack of sleep had started to get to her and she started to see a psychologist for a little bit. but once he started to get older carson also stopped being a little pain in the ass and then it was harder for his parents to get him out of bed. they usually had to fight carson to get up and when he did get up he usually walked around like a zombie. it was not that he was just getting sleep it really took him a long time to actually wake up. elementary school was not that big of a deal for carson. he just did what he could do to get good grades and usually studied his ass off believe it or not. then when he hit middle school he made friends with the wrong crowd and then he dumbed himself down so that people would actually like him. it was probably a stupid thing to do since he is actually pretty smart but kids can be vicious. especially when you're a smart male. that was probably the first problem in his life. but he decided to get a hobby and that was when he picked up the guitar and started to get lessons. well, he begged his parents to give him lessons but that is not the point. he was really happy to own his own guitar and middle school band is what sparked his interest. they had been forced to pick some kind of instrument for year 6 and that was what he chose. and that was that. that was when he met his best friend skylar. they had been inseparable and really everyone thought they were dating at first. sometimes carson thinks that they should have dated but that is not the point. so ever since middle school to high school they were always hanging out. and then one day, when he was seventeen, he decided he would try to do some drugs. nothing too hard he guessed. someone gave him cocaine and told him to have fun and he did. so he got skylar to do it with him and then he got a couple more people to do with with him and before he knew it skylar was freaking out and started to seize up and he just totally freaked out. he called 911 and rode with her in the hospital but she died on the way. and that was when carson decided that he was never going to do drugs again and he felt so lost that day and after that and he honestly still feels so much guilt that it sometimes eat away at him. so, to get it all out he started to get heavier into guitar and then decided what the hell why not form a band right? he never really figured that they would get this big but hey, anything is apparently possible right?
heather | 21 | 5 years | GMT - 5
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