let's sail away, kade!

[haley]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

when it came to getting girls, haley was a master. he knew all the tricks about picking up girls at the clubs and having a good time with them for the next couple of hours before tossing them out on the streets. he'd done that plenty of times. but when it came to actual romance, haley was still very new to the whole concept. before he didn't believe in romance or love, or any of that other bullshit. he thought it was all made up by the media in order to sell movies, games, television shows, and anything else those greedy liars can get to squeeze every last penny out of their clients. it was sickening their idea of romance, tying yourself to one person for the rest of your life! who would want to do such a thing? - at least that's how haley used to think, before he had experienced it himself. and now he's experienced two feelings he thought he'd never have to deal with: love and heartbreak. two very different spectrums of human emotion. haley used to think there only existed a lust spectrum. he used to think that in order to have any chemistry with someone, it was purely based on outer appearance. that's what drove him to kade at first.

even the mention of her name sent chills up his spine. never before had he broken down his wall he put between him and the girls he sleeps with. before her, he had this wall that protected him from ever getting attached to one of his one night stands. when kade came into the picture, she somehow destroyed that wall between them. at the time haley was completely oblivious to it. he didn't know she would someday break his heart. and yet that day has come. and here he was, heading out to the beach for a little play date with her, and once again he was getting that queasy crush feeling in his stomach. you know, that nauseous feeling of butterflies in your stomach. that was also a strange, new feeling haley didn't get before meeting kade. he wanted this day to go perfect, though he had a really bad feeling. he hadn't been able to hang out with kade without getting into some kind of fight with her. pacing around the bathroom, looking at the mirror while trying to calm himself, haley promised himself - for his sake and her sake, that he would not cause another fight. he wanted for her to be his friend again, he didn't want to blow it again. he wasn't sure how many chances she would get before she gave up on him. haley needed this date. he needed to know how she felt about him, he needed closure, something that might get him to stop feeling like he did before he needed some professional help.

for this specific occasion, haley remembered that he had promised her he would be sober for this, so he kept his word. he didn't want to give her any reason to get mad at him, not after all the work he's put into this date. though the beach wasn't exactly the fancy place he had hoped for, but today was turning out to be a perfect day. it was almost as if mother nature was on his side today. it was a nice change, haley was worried about them getting rained on or blown away, but there was only a couple of harmless clouds in the sky and the wind was still. as he climbed up to the docks, he looked over to the coast guard and waved at him. the coast guard gave him a thumbs up, knowing that his surprise for her is going according to plan. haley returned the high five with one of his own and continued to walk towards the yacht that was resting at the end of the dock. haley climbed aboard the ship to see the table for two already set up with a bottle of sparkling cider in the center. haley took a seat on the chair that was facing the entrance, hoping that his date would arrive soon. he was worried she might have gotten lost or didn't know where to go. then he remembered that he had texted her earlier that day to meet him on the docks.

TAGGED ! kade
WORDS ! 727
OUTFIT ! too lazy to make one
LYRICS ! sometimes by skillet
TEMPLATE ! PANIC! ITS LAUZ @ CAUTION
NOTES ! blah blah

[kadejettchanel]

He texted me saying meet him at the dock, it was around eight pm so it was getting darker by the second. I had put on my bikini underneath my dress just in case we were going swimming, or he could have stood me up in the first place. But you know he’d just miss out on seeing me swim. That is if I end up swimming and forgetting about him. I didn’t bother bringing a towel because I’m too lazy. I played my music as I was putting my make-up on, I could hear people scream as they watched Fifa world cup, which in my opinon I think is crap. Ayden walked up to the bathroom and looked me up and down, it’s nice we’re still close friends as we both had a past which was being a couple. At least he treated me better than Haley, but anyways, Ayden just looked at me and asked where I was going as he was chewing gum I rolled my eyes and scoffed at him, he probably knew I was going out on a date with Haley he then chuckled to himself and laughed and I laughed to myself as I finished doing everything and walked off out of the bus and waited for a taxi.

Haley sent me a text earlier when I was out taking a walk while also taking pictures to meet him at the dock, butterflies roaming around my stomach like it was their territory which it wasn’t but whatever. I was happy my dress didn’t reach the floor, but it was a little over my knees which is good. I wish my parents could see where I am now. I sat down at the end of the dock. Scared about if he has a plan, I didn’t want a date where all we do is make-out but I don’t want a date where all he can do is freak out and act perfect for me. I know that all we’ve been yelling at each other and calling each other sluts, c u next Tuesday’s yeah work that out for yourself anything and everything. Until I threw my journal at him the other day, oh fuck that was embarrassing I just wanted to die! But that’s truly how I feel about him and I want to tell him myself and not through paper. You know! I think I did something, he was nice back then. But that was probably because he was 15 he still was sort of a dick but kinder towards me and girls. I think I did something, tho he was a little over-protective of me when we were together. I don’t know why I liked him and I don’t know why I still like him but you know what. We’ll find out tonight as to why I’m such a bitch towards him and getting a boyfriend. Eh, but I’m too predictable anyone can read me like a book sometimes if you know me that well and know what I’ll do next. Like Haley! OH FUCK.
“Why is every fucking thought about fucking Haley Addams!” I yelled to myself, he probably heard me and his heart probably shattered but you know what. He stood me up! I knew he’d do this say that crap like “OH I LOVE YOU KADE I DON’T JOKE ABOUT THAT SHIT!” and “I NEVER KNEW HOW YOU FELT THAT WAY! DON’T WORRY I WON’T DRINK!” I’m gonna hurt that kid!

I groaned and grimaced walking off only to feel side-tracked and fell into the arms of the one and only Haley Addams. He looked all dolled up and nice looking. He’s lucky he’s cute or else I would of hurt him. But all I could do was slap him, which in fact I did. He looked at me with a ‘The fuck that for?’ face, I rolled my eyes.
“That, Mr. Addams, is called a slap. I use it when I’m pissed off. I used that slap on you because you needed that! I gave you that slap because you took your damn time!” I said, fuck I’m inpatient! I then gave him a kiss on the cheek I had slapped him and smiled at him
“That, Mr. Addams, is called a kiss on the cheek. I use it when I see a friend. I gave you that kiss on the cheek because I missed seeing you when we’re not fighting. I gave you that kiss on the cheek because I thought I’d kiss your slapped cheek better!” I told him with a smile, hoping that the kiss will not piss him off and for him to leave which I don’t want him too. I moved my hand from his cheek to hand and grabbed it.

TAG. haley
WORDS. 797
OUTFIT. CLICK.
MUSIC. The Reason Hoobastank
NOTES. YES LONG POST! NOW OFF TO SHOWER TRALALALALA
CREDITS. jurate @ CAUTION, please don't steal!

[haley]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

as he waited, he started to wonder if she would show up. how could she stand him up like this? true he was acting very strange on the instant message the other day, but can you really blame him after her throwing her journal at his face. it still left a pretty big bump on his head. he wasn't expecting her to feel the same way as him after reading her journal, and he clearly wasn't expecting him to say i love you clear out of the blue. maybe it was his desperation that caused him to say that without even thinking. that probably threw her off balance for sure, which might cause her not to even bother showing up. it wasn't like the first time he's been stood up by a girl... wait, it was. haley couldn't believe it. after going threw all the trouble of arranging such an extravagant outing, she wouldn't show up like that. he sighed, about to head out and pout about his horrible day when suddenly, he caught kade with his arms.

he was a bit surprised to see her, already forming an image in his head that she had been back on the tour bus, planning to avoid haley for the rest of the tour. and here she was in his arms, the last place haley would've thought to have found her. he smiled, realizing that he hadn't been daydreaming and it was indeed kade in his arms. it only took a good slap from kade for haley to realize this. he gave her that look, asking her what the hell that was for. "what? i was waiting for you in the yacht. i thought you'd be smart enough to see the only boat out on the docks. you think i did all of this last minute and i just came and went whenever i pleased?" he asked her in a rather terrifying way. then he thought about it and lightened up. "yeah, i guess i can see how it might seem." haley smiled, she knew him well, so the one time he tries to do something different that's not haley, he should have known it would backfire. but then she did something that he would have never suspected and kissed him on the cheek.

"i like that way better than a slap on the face." he teased. with that, he picked her up and carried her onto the yacht. when they entered, he carefully set her back down. "this is what i call a picnic on the pacific." he showed her the table with a picnic basket in the center. he lead her over to the table and sat her down, placing a wine glass in front of her. "i know what you're thinking, this is just virgin apple cider. there's no alcohol content in it whatsoever." haley grabbed the bottle and opened it with a can opener, and poured her a glass. he sat across from her and poured himself a glass. "now," he said, reaching back into the basket. "i've got lots of different lunch meats and cheeses, what would you like?" he asked as he started unpacking the food onto their table.

and like he said, there was all different kinds of lunch meats: ham, turkey, roast beef. and he had cheese: swiss, american, blue. he even brought out a jar of peanut butter and jelly. once he was finished with that, he unloaded some other healthy items like fruits and vegetables. haley didn't eat much healthy foods, so this was the healthiest he could think of. he had been too busy trying to unload all the food, that he had completely forgotten they were on a boat, so when the engine turned on and they started moving, he jumped a little bit. he chuckled to himself, and looked at her. "i hope you don't get seasick often." he said. "but just in case, let's open the window so you can puke your brains out." leave it to haley to say something absurd during lunch. he opened up the window, where a beautiful view shined through. he sat back down and looked across the table at kade. she looked stunning in the light, haley couldn't resist but to fall even deeper under her spell.

TAGGED ! kade
WORDS ! 743
OUTFIT ! too lazy to make one
LYRICS ! sometimes by skillet
TEMPLATE ! PANIC! ITS LAUZ @ CAUTION
NOTES ! blah blah

[kadejettchanel]

He picked me up off of the floor boards, in a way I was happy about this but also in some aspect I wanted to be put down, I won’t push or shove him. He stood on the yatch and slowly put me down. I chuckled.
“I thought I was too fat! Amazing you can pick me up and carry me!” I replied as I walked over to the table looking at it, Haley ran over and pulled the chair out for me I sat down and he pushed the chair in and he sat on the other side of me and pulled out two wine glasses and a bottle of some sort that he need a can opener to open. I had a look on my face like ‘Dude, you promised me!’ but he noted that it was just apple cider, I gave a relief sigh and smiled sweetly at him. He poured me one and then handed it to me then pouring him one. He then started to explain at the meats and cheeses.

I think Haley’s gone over the top with this. Maybe he just wants to impress me. Which is pretty weird for Haley because the biggest thing he’s done to impress me was the first time he liked me. But now he’s going over the top, he says he still loves me. Mind over heart? Or heart over mind? For Haley it’s dick over mind, but at the moment it’s more like heart and mind over dick. Which is why he’s getting sweeter and sweeter by the second. It made my heart bounce and my stomach go flutter the feeling of my stomach made me excited, I haven’t felt this in a while. Since I met Haley was probably it or Ayden honestly I was fifteen or seventeen that’s all I know really. But the feeling was intense and I loved it every second of it. I noticed we were taking off from the port Haley gave me a smirk and opened his mouth commenting saying that he’d leave a window open for me if I need to vomit at all. I scoffed.

“Honestly Haley!” I said acting appalled, but laughed because I was such an idiot. I didn’t get sea sick at all, okay from time to time but not that often really. I smiled at Haley.
“What’s with all the romantic stuff and everything?” I asked him, al tho it wasn’t as what I had hoped because it was out of Haley’s range. But I think any girl who he had slept with wouldn’t really want this and all they would do is try to get in his pants like they did the other night. But me, I liked it. Different, but I knew he’d at least do something decent you know. I loved it, not liked it. LOVE it only because Haley is one crazy little boy. But I think he’s trying to impress me, I can admit I am impressed that he of all people can pull this off! Especially with his background and how he treats women it’s some pretty amazing shit actually.
“I mean I love it! And if you’re trying to impress me, its working!” I said with a grin planted on my face then I started to giggle and how much of an idiot I look.

“Like who would not be impressed by a boy like you doing this just to impress one stupid silly little girl like me.” I told him while I bit my bottom lip thinking what it was like to be just us, to remember how it felt when we weren’t ripping each other’s hair out. I like it, just the ocean breeze and the feeling of the calm wind reach my shoulders. What was it about this date that made it special that he took his time placing everything together and making everything perfect. But in reality no one’s perfect nothing’s perfect not even Haley nor I. If he wants me back all he has to ask right. Oh yeah, The Used lyric right there in that sentence that has something to do with anything and everything. “I just wanted to ask, if you love me. Why are you sleeping around with groupies and fan girls and never wanted to get in a punch on with Ayden? Why is it that you cared so much about me you wanted to put it in the back of your head?” I asked him and I knew I was going to get in a lot of shit with this but I needed to know so bad! I needed to know the reason why he didn’t want to beat the living daylights out of Ayden for ‘Stealing his girl’ and how he’d sleep around with girls and just forget that we were even an item. I knew that whatever he was going to say would back fire and hit me straight in the face.

TAG. haley
WORDS. 828
OUTFIT. CLICK.
MUSIC. Pro Nails Kid Sister feat, Kayne West
NOTES. oh so happy i'm posting long ones! (that's what she said?)
CREDITS. jurate @ CAUTION, please don't steal!

[haley]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

when she commented something about her weight, haley shook his head in disapproval. no way in hell was she fat, or was she ever fat. he did occasionally kid around with her about being fat, but it was his weird way of flirting with her. for some reason, she's been the only girl who haley's actually acted retarded and lame with his flirting, but she still fell for it almost every time. now it's almost impossible for haley not to joke around about her and tease her when they flirt, because it usually works. the only thing that haley hated about second and third dates, is that he gets bored with the other person's quirks, but with kade, he always learned something about her when he was with her. she was interesting enough to have a second date with. plus, she didn't let his popularity influence how she felt about him. believe it or not, most girls come onto him and not the other way around. one would think he did all the moves, but all he does is kiss, and then the girls go wild for more, and next thing he knows, they're all over his nuts, literally.

he just laughed again. "i thought i was being smooth, otherwise you might've thought it was a bit too much." haley said. but the topic was brought up by her when she spoke. he was a bit shocked by her asking him that. didn't she like it? isn't that what she wanted? he took a moment to think for a second. "well, you always assume you know me the best, which you do, so in order to impress you i just thought of what you'd never expect me to do." haley smirked. and his plan had worked. part of him wanted to impress her, but the other part wanted to show her he could still be romantic and exciting. there was a small part of him, and though haley knew he shouldn't be thinking about it, that wanted her back. well, usually it's a huge part of him, but for this date, he had managed to keep the thought small, but it was still present.

he smiled, taking it as a compliment. just as he suspected, she had no idea of what he was planning. score for haley, he thought. he tried to ignore as much as that part of him who wanted her back, he didn't want to make this anymore awkward than it already was when he foolishly told her he had loved her. he was hoping she wouldn't bring it up, but then he knew that it was almost inevitable for her not to ask about it. he held back his groan when it was brought up, not wanting to ruin the moment. but if he was going to make things right with her, he needed to be honest and ask any questions she had as honestly as he could. he just thought it would be a bit before she started interrogating him. "well..." haley trailed off, taking a sip of his apple cider to give him some time to collect his thoughts. "i knew if i got involved with ayden directly and took a swing at him, you'd hate me forever and i didn't want that." he grabbed ham and placed it on the bread. "and as for those girls, i only did it because i thought you and ayden had already... you know, many times and i wanted to get back at you." he didn't want to say the word, it would bring back images of the two of them together, only making it harder for him not to get upset. "i was jealous and stupid back then, thinking i'd get my revenge that way." he put two slices of cheese ontop of his ham and then spread some mustard and mayo on the empty bread.

as he was fixing his sandwich, the thought popped into his head. "did you two ever..." he asked, waiting for her answer. he did his best to be prepared for the worst, knowing that she knew about most if not all, of the girls he slept with during that time, it was only fair for him to know and not get too upset about it. he took a bite out of his sandwich after adding lettuce and tomatoes to it, hoping it would calm him down when the answer came.

TAGGED ! kade
WORDS ! 737
OUTFIT ! too lazy to make one
LYRICS ! sometimes by skillet
TEMPLATE ! PANIC! ITS LAUZ @ CAUTION
NOTES ! lol yay! if you want i can make my posts shorter

[kadejettchanel]

I sighed I knew he was going to ask this question, I knew the pervious question I asked was a bit too rough and I knew it was going to bounce back at me. It’s not that I’m smart, which I am! Pssh, that’s not my ego talking. Not at all! But it’s because I’ve been in this situation either with my younger brother Joel who always questions me after a big night of partying which he’d be drinking a tiny bit. In my opinon I want him to be better than me. I now realise that I was straying from the question in my mind. I’ve never had sex with anyone except him. Not even when I was drunk and I’d pick up guy, I’d always chicken out because some part of me was sober. I just always chickened out but the boy I was with sore not to tell anyone or I’ll cut their balls off. Or at least kick them there so they wouldn’t be able to reproduce their dick genes. But the situation both Haley and I are in right now reminds me of the song Dakota by A Rocket to the Moon. Oh I love that band! ‘I'm falling over you. It's the way you do, the things you do. That make me fall in love with you, Dakota, are you in love with me too?’ And I know it’s about a guy just meeting a girl. But you know what. BUT WHATEVER! It just sounds like Haley’s singing the song about me. Because He told me he loves me, but I honestly don’t know. I’d love to go back into a relationship with him but I get to obsessed as he could have seen on my diary, but if I’m ever back with Haley I won’t go all obsessed girlfriend on him you know. I sighed and ate whatever I grabbed and listened to what he had to say about what I asked him. Well what he was finishing anyways.

“Well I would be scared for yours and Ayden’s sake and I’d be pissed off at you for doing that. But I could never hate you! But when I was with Ayden I was trying to forget you so much! But you’d always be stuck in my tiny stupid brain!” I said hitting my brain with a small smile. I knew I damaging brain cells but I’m already killing them with drinking aren’t I? I then shook my head placing my lips to the right of my face, ugh I don’t know what you call that action when you move your lips to the lower right side of your face when you move the muscles in your mouth.
“No I’ve never had sex with Ayden, I’ve never had sex with any of the guys I’d hook up with I’d chicken out. Sure I’d kiss or make out with them. But in all honesty I’ve never had sex with anyone except you! Well chickening out and that information they gave us in health class a couple of days right after we had sex. Oh lord I’m scarred for life now too many images of herpes on the basements and ughhh!” I shuddered at the thought remembering what happened. I remember looking at Haley scared. But we used protection so it was okay and I was on the pill and we planned and shit because we were so organized little 15 or 16 year olds. I hate some more of the food and taking a sip of the drink placed in front me. I sighed, “Sorry if that made you un-conferrable thinking about Ayden and me together and such. But you know we’re close but we’re not together right?” I said to Haley looking up at him. If he didn’t know he’d probably lie and say that he knew that. I bit my lip, fuck I was nervous! I’m always like this and it’s sometimes annoying, okay nervous most times but this was probably worse I don’t know what to say than “HEY LETS FUCK!” but I wouldn’t say that to Haley, I’d flirt with him a bit you know laugh at all his jokes kiss him then I’d be in his bed. But we’ve only had sex or twice but still he’s the only guy I’ve ever had sex with, lost my virginity to and ever loved. I’m a cold heartless bitch yeah yeah sue me for all I care!

“But are there any questions you want to ask me? Since I asked you something kind of personal,” I said finishing the small sandwich I had in my hand, sighing I looked straight at Haley in the eyes, he could probably read what was in my eyes. Okay literally I had nothing written in my eyes but you catch my drift. I don’t know what it said probably that I needed help, a way out of life a call for help. What if in the end Haley was the one who saved me. Like Superman, my own personal Superman. Sweet huh?

TAG. haley
WORDS. 846
OUTFIT. CLICK.
MUSIC. Pro Nails Kid Sister feat, Kayne West
NOTES. : D posed finally aha, hope you like it!
CREDITS. jurate @ CAUTION, please don't steal!

[haley]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

haley let the conversation about his thoughts of getting into a fist fight with ayden slip. considering it was almost as bad as the actual contact with his face by haley's fist. kade would definitely approve. he smiled, not saying anything to further elaborate, though millions of questions were piling up in his head. he was afraid to ask any of them. he knew this date would turn into some kind of reminiscence about the good times and about the bad times. he kind of wished they would talk about something that didn't involve him wanting to vomit. he didn't like dwelling in the past, it was just something that haley hated. weren't you supposed to learn from your experiences, not to go back to them and talk about how stupid you were back then. but on the other side, it sure felt nice knowing that kade would not have hated him after all. maybe he should have taken a swing at ayden, but he knew that sometimes girls don't even know how they would react in situations like that. it was better not to test that theory. hearing that she didn't hate him for at least contemplating about it, the thought seemed to lift a bunch of regret from his body.

haley knew that he had opened pandora's box when he had asked kade if she ever had sex with ayden. he was almost sure that kade would turn around and attack him back, but he was quite surprised at the reply. she didn't have sex with him. plus he had learned that she didn't have sex with anyone else but him. she could have sex with any other guy, just as long as it wasn't ayden, and haley would have been perfectly fine. but the fact that he was her first and only made him feel high and mighty, but simultaneously an asshole. though he's been with plenty of women before, during, and after dating kade (during was when he was trying to seek revenge on her), she's been clearly in the top five of being the most intimate and affectionate sex he's ever had. she may have even been number one on that list, but they had sex so long ago, haley almost forgot how it felt. all he knew was that it was amazing and if given the opportunity to do it again, he'd take the chance in a heartbeat, even if it killed him.

"so, you've never had sex with anyone but me?" haley asked, his mind lingering back onto that conceitedness he was feeling. it felt good to be able to speak openly about this topic without getting something thrown at him. usually the girls he slept with were a hit it and quit it, and they knew to just leave in the morning, but occasionally if a girl got attached, after hearing about haley's promiscuous lifestyle, they would start throwing his stuff at him. it didn't happen very often, but it sure as hell didn't make haley feel bad once they were finally gone. when she mentioned that dreaded name again, haley almost felt like he was actually going to puke. he wasn't sure if it was just the mention of that name in specifically that caused him to gag, or if he was actually getting a bit seasick. he was able to contain himself after her reassuring him they weren't together. "i'm sorry it didn't work out with him." haley lied. he knew that kade could see right through that pathetic apology, but it was one of those things that he had to say, otherwise he'd either sound too douchy or too conceited. he tried his best to hold back a smile on his face, but he just couldn't help but to start to put the puzzle pieces back together. kade and ayden were not together, kade was here with him on a date, when she could have just easily gone out with ayden. she picked haley over him. that had to mean something.

then his stomach started to feel really bad, like he had just taken a chainsaw to his organs. he looked at kade when she had offered him to ask her any more questions. when he opened his mouth, what he thought were words about to come out, but then he felt that it was something else. he ran to the bathroom on the boat, and vomited. shit, he thought. he couldn't believe he actually vomited. haley has never gotten seasick in his life. growing up with a father who enjoyed fishing, haley had a high tolerance for the sea, but as he flushed away and grabbed a breath mint from the medicine cabinet. okay, so he took about seven mints and popped them into his mouth. he sighed, hoping that kade wouldn't be grossed out by his sudden outburst. after a few seconds of letting the breath mints overpower his mouth, he started to feel a bit better, and came out of the bathroom. he was sure to grab the rest of the breath mints and pocketed them.

"sorry, i don't know what came over me. i've never been seasick before." he said weakly. he took a seat back down and looked at kade. "where were we?" he asked, and then popped another couple of breath mints into his mouth to make sure she couldn't smell the vomit. he was sure it was almost gone, but he couldn't be too careful. "actually, can we move this to the bedroom, they say that the best place to be is the area with the least bumpy, which i believe is the bedroom." haley said. he felt really bad about cutting the dinner a bit short, but he was afraid he would vomit again. he got up and walked down the hall, looking back, hoping that kade would shortly followsuit. he opened the door into the bedroom to find a huge master bed in the center of it. he climbed on top of the bed and sat down, letting his feet dangle off the edge. "now, we can resume."

TAGGED ! kade
WORDS ! 1054
OUTFIT ! too lazy to make one
LYRICS ! sometimes by skillet
TEMPLATE ! PANIC! ITS LAUZ @ CAUTION
NOTES ! i liked it! sorry this one is so long. don't worry about trying to reply so long. i felt that we needed to speed the date up just a tad bit. feel free to cut my post off if you don't like it.

[kadejettchanel]

I could sense something different in Haley, he just seemed calmer and less tense as he is most of them time when I’m around. In a way it’s a good thing to talk about things that happened any regrets you have anything you have to confess. But it’s bad because you just want to break down crying or just yell out that you don’t want to talk about it or at least remember the things you did. But I wanted to clear some stuff up and Haley did have to right to tell me to not talk about it or at least insist I talk about something different like photography, music, going to parties or how he’s such a gentleman for this wonderful and respectful dinner. I sighed but not in the sigh that “Oh I’m so sad! Boo hoo” sad, but the “Eh whatever, I’m fine.” kind of sigh. Tho it was a quick sigh you couldn’t hear it anyways. Even if you were amazing at listing to sighs. Okay why am I talking about sighs? I’m a silly fucker.

"so, you've never had sex with anyone but me?" He asked me I nodded as I looked down towards my lap playing with my fingers, I was nervous I don’t get nervous or shy that much but when I do, everyone knows when to not ask questions. "i'm sorry it didn't work out with him." Haley said after I told him Ayden and I were history, I could tell he was lying about it. But I shrugged it off. I didn’t care what Haley thought about Ayden, but they both are in the same band so it’s quite odd for that if tensions are high or what I’m not there for band practise and I won’t be there when Haley and Ayden get in a fight. I wish I could just yell out how much I like Haley, I don’t know if its love and I don’t want to admit it is if it is. I don’t like love, I never believed it and never will believe it, unless someone shows me what love is I’ll believe it but for the mean time it doesn’t exist. That’s pretty much my motto and plan in life and I live by it really. The boat was rocking a bit but I didn’t mind, I remember when I was around 17 or 18 I used to go on fishing trips with a few of my guy friends who in the end I didn’t have sex with of course and my little brother. But obviously Haley didn’t like it at all, I wanted to laugh but I knew I couldn’t laugh because it was quite rude and he couldn’t help it if he’s sea sick you know. Gosh I’m a bitch when I want to be. Haley then came back holding onto something in his hand, breath mints I presume. I smiled up at him.

"sorry, i don't know what came over me. i've never been seasick before." Haley said, he took his seat again and looked at me. I shook my head.
"It’s okay, my brother sometimes got sea sick whenever I went out on fishing trips with a few of my guy friends." I told him shaking my head at him, he was such a drama queen sometimes and by him I mean Joel, tho sometimes Haley can be a drama queen. But he’s the lead singer of the band most of them are drama queens.
"where were we?" Haley asked me, I shrugged my shoulders and just looked at him. He then popped something in his mouth probably the breath mints he had in his hand when he came out of the bathroom on this little boat. "actually, can we move this to the bedroom, they say that the best place to be is the area with the least bumpy, which i believe is the bedroom." He asked me, I sighed and looked at him a bit sceptic about it. Haley + a girl + a bedroom = bad, but as long as he doesn’t vomit on me I’m fine with whatever the hell we do really. I got up and walked behind him, he looked back and smiled at me I grinned back, it was a fake grin he could sense it or maybe he was too much of an idiot to notice. I heard a creak and I quickly looked up to see that he opened the door of a bedroom Haley walked in first and I heard a bounce type sound you know. I walked into the door frame to see a big bed with him sitting on the end of it "now, we can resume." He told me, I nodded and just stayed in the door frame. He gestured for me to walk in as he patted the area next to him insisting I sat next to him. I was nervous I wanted to do bad things with him, but I didn’t want to have sex with him now not yet anyways, but who knows whatever happens happens and I can’t change the past or the future and if I could believe me I would change it in a heartbeat and if it meant not fucking up what I had with Haley then I would take it. I sat down next to him and sighed.
"I’m sorry to get all emotional and girly and I hate showing my feelings and you know that. But I’m sorry." I told him, I hated saying sorry first but sometimes you have to do it if you want to make friends and I wanted piece with Haley, hell I want a relationship with him but we have to build our friendship and if that meant saying sorry first then I’ll do it for the sake of saving my life and making me a better person.

TAG. haley
WORDS. 985
OUTFIT. CLICK.
MUSIC. Damn Girl Kid Sister feat, Kayne West
NOTES. OH GOD YES POSTED! I don't mind if they take it to the bedroom ; D aha
CREDITS. jurate @ CAUTION, please don't steal!